You keep saying you need to learn to be better. I think that I'm holding you back. I don't know how exactly because I've always encouraged you and tried to be supportive and warm and kind. I've tried to always show that I love you endlessly. But now I also feel that somehow, I am the reason that you're unable to push yourself to get better. To change. It kills me to realize you'll be better for your next girlfriend and you were better for the last one. I was a mistake in your life, an abnormality on your timeline. 

I'm trying to work up the strength to leave so that you can thrive. Please be patient with me. I just want you to be happy again and it's so clear to me that you can't be happy as long as I'm around you.