Another morning of waking up to you being unhappy with me. I cannot remember the last time I woke up and felt like you missed me, or needed me, or felt anything other than annoyance or frustration with me. I'm barely sleeping anymore. I woke up at 5am because I wanted and hoped you'd write something kind to me today. But it wasn't, and I regret even reading any of what you sent, because instead it just upset me and prevented me from being able to fall back to sleep. I'm exhausted. Mentally, emotionally, physically. I just don't know how to make you happy with me anymore. It doesn't matter what I do.

You said something funny, too. You said you wanted to try to reconnect over the next few days. Try to reconnect? Now? I thought that's what you said you were trying to do this whole time. I know I have been doing everything I could to make you feel connected and like we were connecting on any level, I mean literally any level other than you being annoyed at me. 

I can't do this much longer.